August 31st 1997. Who were you with? September 11th 2001. Where were you? March 23rd 2020. How does that make you feel? Memory. A feeling I’m struggling to find words to describe. My little Awena is approaching her first birthday and I absolutely can’t believe it. Nearly a year on, I am feeling such a […]
One thing I hold lockdown completely responsible for is robbing me of my creative streak. I haven’t written a blog consistently for months, not due to the lack of something to say, but due to the fact that I have just found it so difficult to motivate myself to be expressive. Emotions are funny things […]
It’s been weeks since I feel I’ve had the ability or mind space to sit down and write a blog. I think that quite happily sums up how my brain feels at the moment…rather like mush. As one Groundhog Day rolls into another it becomes not only essential to find those treasured moments we are […]
Time is definitely a healer, right? This may be so but it’s definitely not a remover. Yesterday was national premature baby day. Be it randomly or coincidentally, whilst watching Bake Off #GBBO this incredibly emotive Pampers advert popped up. It took me right back. I haven’t been able to shift the feeling it evoked. All […]
Can anyone else believe we are in November already and can count on one hand the number of people who have been to your house in the last 8 months? It’s been quite a year and one in which we really need to pull together…but, oh, wait, that is one of the things that has […]
I’m a bit unsure as to how to introduce today’s blog. I think all I can do is allow the words below to do the work. As many of you are probably aware last week was a remembrance week for all those who have lost a baby at whatever stage of pregnancy or life. I […]
Why is mum guilt such a real and often daily thing? Why is it that when they’re tucked up in bed you look at them and think; “why can’t I feel these in-love and mushy feelings towards them when they’re up and about, climbing the walls and generally driving me around the bend?” I definitely […]
Love. What a tiny looking word with such a weighted and complicated meaning. Prior to having kids or even getting married, I don’t think I really understood the depth needed to love. I hadn’t grasped the multi-faceted three-dimensional nature of love. I was fortunate enough to grow up in a very loving family but see […]
You just do it, don’t you? I went for a walk with a dear friend today and she asked me how on earth I’d managed with Poppi at home, home-schooling, being pregnant and then having a lockdown baby. She then reflected herself and said, well somehow, we just do it don’t we? Whatever life throws […]
Neonates. What an all-encompassing, all-consuming, emotionally exhausting experience. I’m finding it hard to find the words to say to describe the 19 days Awena spent in the neonatal unit. I think I have to start by thanking the amazing staff who made the whole experience so much more manageable. Without their reassurance, confidence and general chats I am convinced […]