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I got you babe

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What do we do when it so regularly feels that we are gasping for breath and just keeping our heads above the water to survive?  It’s a tricky place to be and one that can feel quite lonely.  When things are particularly tough it can be quite natural to feel that we are the only […]

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I’ll cry if I want to

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So, little Awena turned one at the weekend. The sun shone, which sandwiched between two horrendously wet days, was a great blessing. I woke up at 03.50 realising at that time last year I’d had my first skin to skin and Awena had by, now, 20 minutes after being born, been popped in an incubator.  […]

2020

This is me

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You’ve probably heard it said “every baby is different” and of course that’s true.  In fact, every mother is different too.  We might think one thing worked with one child, but then try it with another and it’s a total flop.  We all parent differently.  We all read different things, follow different trends and believe […]

2020

Memory

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August 31st 1997.  Who were you with?  September 11th 2001.  Where were you?  March 23rd 2020.  How does that make you feel? Memory.  A feeling I’m struggling to find words to describe.  My little Awena is approaching her first birthday and I absolutely can’t believe it.  Nearly a year on, I am feeling such a […]

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Rainbows and butterflies

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One thing I hold lockdown completely responsible for is robbing me of my creative streak.  I haven’t written a blog consistently for months, not due to the lack of something to say, but due to the fact that I have just found it so difficult to motivate myself to be expressive.  Emotions are funny things […]

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The power of touch

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Did you know that positive physical touch is necessary for human survival?  Crazy eh?  The other day I popped a little question up on Facebook to ask if you could do anything today, what would that be.  74% responded with seeing friends and family and of that 74%, 41% specified seeing friends and family and […]

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Some peace of mind

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It’s been weeks since I feel I’ve had the ability or mind space to sit down and write a blog.  I think that quite happily sums up how my brain feels at the moment…rather like mush.  As one Groundhog Day rolls into another it becomes not only essential to find those treasured moments we are […]

2020

Driving home for Christmas

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…oh wait…we can’t.  I’m sure there are many of you who have had Christmas plans shattered as the news last week told us that we could no longer spend Christmas elsewhere.  It came as a bit of a blow to us as I was hoping my parents could see Awena as they have basically missed […]

2020

Bridge over troubled water

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Can anyone else believe we are in November already and can count on one hand the number of people who have been to your house in the last 8 months?  It’s been quite a year and one in which we really need to pull together…but, oh, wait, that is one of the things that has […]

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Candle in the wind

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I’m a bit unsure as to how to introduce today’s blog.  I think all I can do is allow the words below to do the work.  As many of you are probably aware last week was a remembrance week for all those who have lost a baby at whatever stage of pregnancy or life.  I […]