basic need

Some peace of mind

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It’s been weeks since I feel I’ve had the ability or mind space to sit down and write a blog.  I think that quite happily sums up how my brain feels at the moment…rather like mush.  As one Groundhog Day rolls into another it becomes not only essential to find those treasured moments we are […]

2020

Driving home for Christmas

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…oh wait…we can’t.  I’m sure there are many of you who have had Christmas plans shattered as the news last week told us that we could no longer spend Christmas elsewhere.  It came as a bit of a blow to us as I was hoping my parents could see Awena as they have basically missed […]

2020

Bridge over troubled water

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Can anyone else believe we are in November already and can count on one hand the number of people who have been to your house in the last 8 months?  It’s been quite a year and one in which we really need to pull together…but, oh, wait, that is one of the things that has […]

attention

The sweetest gift

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Why is mum guilt such a real and often daily thing?  Why is it that when they’re tucked up in bed you look at them and think; “why can’t I feel these in-love and mushy feelings towards them when they’re up and about, climbing the walls and generally driving me around the bend?”  I definitely […]

autumn

I see the light

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Being a mum comes in all shapes and sizes.  There are so many wonderful experiences and so many challenges.  So many things to learn and so much to pass on.  Plenty to share and plenty not worth sharing.  Like, for example, I took Awena for her first swimming lesson today.  It was so special.  With […]

adventure

It’s a hard not life

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You just do it, don’t you? I went for a walk with a dear friend today and she asked me how on earth I’d managed with Poppi at home, home-schooling, being pregnant and then having a lockdown baby.  She then reflected herself and said, well somehow, we just do it don’t we?  Whatever life throws […]

anxiety

To boob or not to boob

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Too much, too little, on-demand, engorged, painful, sore nipples, forever hungry, mastitis, blocked ducts, embarrassing leakage, breast pads, exhausting, emotional, frantic feeds, expressing, pumping and dumping, scratched necks and chests, pulled hair…any of this sound familiar? Why would anyone want to breastfeed?  This week is world breastfeeding week and I think we should either pat […]

adventure

You just gotta ride it

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Neonates.  What an all-encompassing, all-consuming, emotionally exhausting experience.  I’m finding it hard to find the words to say to describe the 19 days Awena spent in the neonatal unit.  I think I have to start by thanking the amazing staff who made the whole experience so much more manageable.  Without their reassurance, confidence and general chats I am convinced […]

Activity

We never change

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Daf and I have never been particularly good at “date night”.  Early on the pressure to do something super original and fun or ensure we had a great time was too much.  We now often struggle to think of something to do, forget, put other things first, don’t want to do what the other wants, […]

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I will survive

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A couple of weeks ago we had a zoom catch up with some lovely folk and heard about all the things those that don’t have kids are planning to learn/master during this weird time of extra time.  There were some fun and creative ideas, but none I felt I could possibly achieve with a young […]